Who cares? Seriously? Blithering crap.

		Budred wrote:
		...I wasn't going to post here anymore but I had something brought to my attention that I wanted to explain.                 If anyone that was on my friends list that may have noticed themselves removed please don't take offense.                  Before Christmas when I thought I was going, I removed everyone from my friends list and later                   I just forgot about trying to fix it. I tried tonight but I don't know if it worked or not. If anyone out there feels                   slighted I apologize. Not a single person that I removed did I have a problem with. I hope I have you back                   on my list.                        I noticed I have two more ignores. I'm not going to let it bother me anymore.. I'm changing but I'll always bother some.                       I can't change that. I would like to say though that instead of using the ignore just mention what I'm doing. Maybe I'll stop.                       If not then hit ignore. I hoping my last problem here actually helped me. It brought on some self realization that I needed.                       Say anything you want, I don't think I'll take things as personally as before. No more crazy responses at least. Peace!                                               Edited at: Saturday, February 05, 2011 11:19:34 PM

I stand by everything I said. If you think that posting crazy stuff affects me you're more deluded than I thought. It's not like punching me through the computer. It's like making yourself look a nut case through the computer. You are absolutely out there looking for sympathy. eg. The time you asked if anybody thought you were posting too many photos etc, to let you know in a PM. Somebody privately tells you they think you should tone it down and what do you do? Post their private PM in the forum and attempt to expose them as a bully. All the while going "I don't understand, I'm just trying to learn, I just want to share" Basically looking for sympathy because somebody told you how fed up and bored they were with the budred avalanche of shit. And the worst thing is, you asked. It's not as though it was a random PM you recieved. It's like a plan a child would conceive. Why do you say you are not a drama queen? I would say you are the textbook example of a drama queen. Always "Woe is me", always looking for approval, always seeking sympathy, always threatening to leave, then coming back, then threatening to leave again...., That's what drama queens do. Anger problems? See a psychiatrist, that's what people do when they can't control their emotions.

		Budred wrote:
		...As much as I want to stay away how can I not respond to this? First, I'll give you some credit and say there may be some truth to your comments but, everything you've stated is greatly exaggerated. (not surprising considering it's coming from you). Let's start from the beginning. 1. Problems. (You may be right, that hasn't been determined yet.) 2. Approval or Sympathy. (Partly right, I'd rather people approve of me being here more so than being blasted like you like to do. I'm      not seeking sympathy even though I can see where you get that considering this isn't the first time I've done this.)(discuss leaving). 3. Rarely contribute and always revert back to myself.( Not true, I've complimented people on their artwork, their drumming, their posts,     their pics, their girlfriends(Paorcamp), I've commented on bands, songs and whatever else without it reverting back to me so that's     ridiculus. 4. Overboard with photos and personal life.( Admittedly so but I've already started to get that under control. Since I posted pics of  Coopers     Rock on Halloween I've only posted pics once and still plan on reducing it so you're a little late on that one. I thought posting about my      personal life would let people get to know me. I can't meet anyone so I thought it would offer a glimpse of me. Maybe too much so but      I'm just now considering myself experienced on these kind of sites. I've only been doing this for a year.) 5. Once a month better if I left posts. (Greatly exaggerated, twice before this and that's why I said I"m not saying I'm gone just considering it.       The first two times I get your comments and admit you may be right. This last time is for the following reasons, not sympathy. (You # 1,       Priest maybe calling it a day # 2, the thought of getting close to people only to say goodbye in a year or two # 3. and lastly how much crap      gets said here to start arguments. I'd rather it be peaceful. 6. Take things personally. (true) 7. Psycotic. Only to you because those posts are the only thing I can do. I'm only trying to make you uncomfortable to get you to stop trying to       ridicule me. I'll never make another post about you if you just stop trying to fuck with me. It's that simple. I don't really want you dead I just      know how much it bothers people to tell them you want them that way. It's like punching you through the computer. Anger issues yes, psychotic no.) 8. Always allude to history of drug use. (You're an idiot because I almost never talk about it. I'd rather it be behind me and it didn't involve hard drugs.     I occasionally made reference it to it when I posted something stupid or forgetful to try to look humorous instead of dumb but it's not like I glorify it     or tell people it's cool.) 9. Drama queen and crybaby. (Not even close to a drama queen and only occasionally cry.) 10. See a professional. (No need to. You've figured me out. I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks man!) Seriously this time. I'll see you guys after the holidays. I just want to clear my head.    Merry Christmas to All! (Yes Jimmy, even you. I love you now.)              (Quoting Message by jimmyjames from Saturday, December 11, 2010 2:17:08 PM)   jimmyjames wrote:   I'm serious. You've got problems. All you're trying to do is seek approval or sympathy. You rarely contribute to conversations and when you do you try to revert the subject back to yourself. You go overboard with the photos and posts about your personal life. At least once a month you go with a long winded "Nobody likes me, all i want to do is fit, maybe it would be better if i just left" post. Obviously designed to get people to say "Don't go budred, we love you blah blah" It's getting boring man. Really boring. You take everything personally. You post psychotic "I wanna kill Jimmy because he makes fun of me" posts. You send psychopathic PMs. You always allude to your history of drug use as if it's something cool, like a 14 year old kid. I think it's stunted you emotionally and made you socially inept which is why you are such a drama queen and a crybaby. Seriously man, see a mental health professional.  Edited at: Monday, December 13, 2010 7:57:22 AM

when are you two getting maried? 

WTF? JP is retiring and your going off the deep end? We all knew it was coming, no reason to grap a life jacket and bail. Sure, did I expect happier news come December? Yes, like many of us. But life will go on, and we will go see them one last time. We will miss them, and yes, this site may be shut down in a couple years, that is up to Judas Priest. 

As you always say Bud. Peace. 

I gues this will be one of those post you (mostly) didn't want to get from me. 

Come on, take the life jacket off and get  your foot back inside the boat, or jump,................your choice, as it has always been. 

  [Show/Hide Quoted Message] (Quoting Message by Budred from Tuesday, December 07, 2010 5:00:27 PM)

		Budred wrote:
		I'm not seeing much of a reason to stay here. I may be speaking out of sadness so I won't say I'll never post here again but just in case I would like to say a few things. As much as I always wanted to be here I never felt like I really fit in. At first it was my own ignorance of how not to start on a site. I apologized and backed off and felt like people were accepting me. Freeze, Guido, Joe D., HRMG, Accolyte(?), and Spapad seemed to be the most accepting and I thank you guys for that. I had a little fun reading the back and forth between J.D. and Brian and the ever enthusiastic Hellrider made me smile with  some of his posts. The first time that I actually wanted to leave and stay away was when Freeze basically called me a loser  for responding to Brian. I've been uncomfortable ever since, trying to watch and analyze most of my posts so as not to offend. Then Jimmy started fucking with me because I said I loved Alanis Morissette's first album. I said it was one of my favorite  albums and ( nothing but stupid comments from him since.) I haven't listened to it for years but one post about it  ruined me here. I left morbid posts about Jimmy and started saying things out of character and then I felt bad. WTF! A couple of misquotes got him  going again. I didn't respond like I normally would trying to keep the peace but that didn't work.  I would like to take the time to apologize to Brian Evans, I did stab him in the back initially. I don't do that unless you're deserving and I'm still not sure he was. He's so back and forth I still don't know. I would like to apologize to Valiant for giving you a couple of uncomfortable days here. I posted you're PM but I wasn't going to name you. I can only guess that you assumed I would and tried to stop any backlash by coming forward. If so, I apologize.   Zomby, I liked you. Not too serious, a bit of a character. Peace man! Guido, thanks for helping when you could. You answered every one of my PM's and I commend you for that. You're a good guy! HRMG, I could have made more of an effort to meet you but I was too damn uptight. You looked right at me once and I didn't even try to get your attention. I'm an ass.   Spapad, thanks for (most) of your comments to me. I was going to finish posting my autographs and repost pics of bands I got to meet but I don't think too many people cared to see them anyway. I had another Halford vid to post and a couple of Ozzy but I don't have the desire anymore. My only criticism(s) of this site are way too many angry posts and too many thinking because that's the way they feel you should too. I tried to never initiate anger and I tried to stress what I said to be opinion.   Man I'm fucking sad right now. AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PEACE ALL!!! (except JIMMMYJAMES who can fucking suck a dick and die for all I care.)(Yes Jimmy, I do hate you!!!)