[joedraper] Wednesday, September 10, 2008 3:54:52 PM
Hello Metal Family,
I'm in need of some love tonight... I caught up with my childhood best friend. We stopped talking to each other thirteen years ago because of a guy that screwed up our friendship, well, we were an unoficial item.. everyone knew we were together and then out of the blue, he shacks up with my best friend behind my back. Because I felt so betrayed by the two people who ment the most to me at the time, I lost it and said some very choice words to both of them; severed ties and dissapeared. I walked away from everything I knew and started over again in a new town...
So thirteen years go by and we get in touch. I figured the two of them would be happily married or whatever equivelent there was for them. To find out from her that not only did they have five years of a rocky relationship and broke up in the end but, he drowned five years ago.
I feel lost all over again. I'm in a happy marriage with the best husband and kids so why am I feeling such a loss over this guy again?
To confuse things more, I'm overjoyed that my friend and I made up but I feel I'm betraying her and my husband by feeling so lost over this guys death?
