[Deep Freeze] Tuesday, October 28, 2008 6:52:08 AM
I have been pondering lately just what it is about this Project that means so much to me. Something stirs inside me and I get very excited. It is more than just making the music. It is more than the friendships. What is it? I think I finally understand.
The Princess has pointed out, on occassion, that I may have made one of those "life mistakes" we all make when I chose not to follow my "Rock and Roll" dreams at a young age. Although I was in bands and enjoying that lifestyle, I chose to stay in school, get a degree and be a "contributing" member of society. Have a family, build a career. You get the idea. I guess it never occurred to me that I may have the talent to be a "rockstar".
This Project gives me an opportunity to live a part of my life long since past. In the dim shadows of yesterday, there are images. Ghosts that move silently in my mind, and music. I can hear the music. It plays like an endless loop, over and over. The songs. The chords. The beat. I can hear it just as if I were there again. I see in these same shadows, the faces. Faces of people long since dissolved into my distant memories. The roar of the crowd as the music plays..and plays...The music.
I suppose there is something in everyone that yearns to be a child again. To be young and have opportunities long since gone. Perhaps I live that part, albeit briefly, when I have that microphone in front of me? For that second or two in time, I am young again and I have that chance again. The chance to be more. To live a life I might have lived. To travel a path I could have traveled. To be....someone else. To experience what Rob does. What KK does. To be them.
I have lived a wonderful life, my friends. I have done and seen things I never thought I would. Success is measured in terms of satisfaction for me, not just dollars. I have had success beyond my dreams. I am here, now. I have friends from all over the world and I have happiness. Regardless of what I have or have NOT done in my life, I have happiness. For me, that is the greatest of all achievements. What was will always be just a dream. What could have been remains floating in my mind. What is makes me smile. Thank you all for your part in that.
