Anthony ...  Thanks.
(Not getting any easier, as I would have hoped.)
I'm just clinging on to sanity by the skin of my teeth ... ha-ha.

Some days are better than others, but it's a tough go...

Didn't help much when Colley borrowed a movie this weekend called, "U-Turn", where Sean Penn gets a couple fingers cut off about a 1/2 hour into the movie.  Yeah... When I realized what was happening, I kind of lost it and became a big, sobbing mess on the floor ...

Wasn't too funny at the time, but Colley jumped up with a horrified look on his face saying, "I didn't know, I didn't know!"  Kind of funny now though...  Needless to say, we haven't watched the end yet...  That was just too close to home for comfort.

Then there's smashing what's left of my 'finger' into things.  Oh yeah, now that's fun.  Holy hell... it's like stubbing a toe, but 100% more pain, for 100x longer.  Note to self, "Gotta stop doing that."

So, all in all, with help from my angels out there (you know who you are...) I stay out of the "black hole" that's ever present and threatening ... and I just sit on the edge, trying to put space between us.

However, a stranger went out of his way to be nice to me yesterday.  I had been a bit rude, which did not warrant his kindness.  But, his small gesture of caring regardless of my own behaviour, at such a critical moment (perhaps, he sensed a breaking point?), went a long way towards me looking at the world and my own situation in a better light.

You just never know when doing something good, however small, will help someone in ways you can't imagine.  He may have helped me turn that corner... At the very least, he reaffirmed some of my faith in humanity.
So, for today, my tears are of gratitude for being lucky enough to have people care.  Thanks to my Angels without wings....

		scorpion01 wrote:
		THINGS ARE GOING WELL! THIS TIME OF THE YEAR I GET A LITTLE CRAZY BEING AN ACCOUNTANT. WE ARE A LITTLE CRAZIER THIS YEAR WITH OUR COMPANY TRYING TO GO PUBLIC. HOW DO YOU FEEL? SOUNDS LIKE  YOU ARE DOING WELL.      WhiskeyWoman wrote: Hey Scorpion!  (you sweet thing, you!) So good to see you again!  Ron gave me your message... kind of kicked my butt to get back here.  Missed you kind folks around here... Now, *his* pc is down and the last chess move he made was Monday morning... MIA for almost two weeks now! Hope things are good with you?      scorpion01 wrote: WELCOME BACK WHISKEY WOMAN. THE BOARD WAS NOT THE SAME WITHOUT YOU.