[J.D. DIAMOND] Thursday, July 16, 2009 10:22:30 PM
Yeah hellrider......its tough.....what do ya say to your own mother when you hear her say constantly "I can't wait until I'm dead"? Yeah it was drama to say the least....I don't mean that my mother was being dramatic..I just meant that the whole senario was drama ya know? And yeah....there was absolutely NOTHING I could of done....I was there all the time for her...every night....
My "C * # T" sister of mine was NEVER there and when my mother died she told me that "I starved my mother to death"....as she lost weight from being so ill.........
Needless to say....I "Xed" her out of my family....she is no longer a part of my family and I wish her nothing but the worst in life...I hate her guts and will NEVER speak to her ever again.
Mother fucker says that I starved my own mother to death........what that shit comment was....is that she felt guilty for NOT being there for my mother wich she wasn't .
But yeah...again...I will never be speaking to her again...and its been over a year since I told her to fuck off. ..........and to tell you the truth.....I should of Xed her ass out of
my life years ago. She is nothing but a "loser". Thats all she will ever be. [Show/Hide Quoted Message](Quoting Message by hellrider 31038 from Thursday, July 16, 2009 7:38:14 PM)
hellrider 31038 wrote:
heart breaking to read.sounds like total hell for many years..you probably did not grieve till after because you were just so full of anger there was nothing you could do to help her.
J.D. DIAMOND wrote:
Hey...thanks Hellrider man.........yeah my mother was very sick she had "emphysema".....a condition from smoking ....as she smoked cigaretts for years.....she quit(too late)in 1988.
But the disease as it works continued on and basically she slowly suffocated to death. I watched her suffer every night for years.......about the last 6- to 7 years she was the worst...
It was very heart breaking to watch to tell you the truth even though it was self inflicted as she was the one who decided to smoke......but it didn't make it any easier ya know?
But the good thing is .....and I know this sounds morbid....but the good thing is that she finally died and was put out of her misery. I never really had time to grieve during her sickness
as I guess I was too busy. But it hit me about 6 months after she died. And yes....she would be very proud of me for me quitting drinking.
Thanks again my friend!!! (Quoting Message by hellrider 31038 from Wednesday, July 15, 2009 10:56:34 PM)
hellrider 31038 wrote:
hey J.D yeah i remember you mentioning about your mother a while back again i would like to express my deepest sympathy to you and your family.well im sure she would be very happy and proud of you for quiting drinking.
J.D. DIAMOND wrote:
Thanks Hellrider!!! Yeah man...the last drink...well..... the last several of drinks I had was "the day my mother died"(August 30,2007....R.I.P.)
Ever since.....I have not had a sip and I don't plan on ever having one again. Its just not my thing and not for me.
But I am sometimes around people that get to wasted and they end up fucking my whole night up and I'm sick of it.
Yeah Hellrider....I'm with you man...if I want to get ripped out of my mind I will crank up Judas Priest!!!!!!
And to Al-Fons.....thats too bad to hear about your father and I hope that you are not in a battle with alchohol. (Quoting Message by hellrider 31038 from Tuesday, July 14, 2009 7:05:30 PM)
hellrider 31038 wrote:
HELL YEAH J.D DIAMOND THY COOOMMMMMMAAAANNNNDDDDEEEERRRR.congradulation man thats great.i dont drink either.if i want to get riped out of my skull i will just crank up some JUDAS PRIEST HEAVY MEEEETTTTTT TTTTAAAALLLLLL
J.D. DIAMOND wrote:
"ALCOHOLISM". I am fucking sick and fucking tired of "drunks".....people getting "fucked up" that can't handle it.
If you want to ruin your life,......go ahead...just leave me the fuck out of it. I'm so tired of people that drink.....
J.D. hasn't had a drink in over 2 years now and I don't EVER plan on having one for the rest of my life.
